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Thursday, April 8, 2010
distress - probably the best word to describe this week. totally lost my plot for my econs papers. esp the one 3days back. it was the worst paper attempted and am very sure result will be hell badly-done! for the past week. i thought i had prepared "well" for the paper, putting more effort and time to it so that i wouldnt hav a hard time to study for my final exams. but it turned out to be a wrong "strategy" and i completely blew it away. as soon as i flipped over the paper. the questions and diagrams all of a sudden look soo stranger to me and i actually took lottas time solving each qns. as a result i couldnt finish the paper on time and left out quite alot of qns! huge disappointment and was kinda demoralized aft mon's paper. simply had no mood, low confidence and unprepared for yesterday's paper which add even more misery this week. time management - am totally suck at it. be it allocating revision modules before exams or during papers. it has been the case since the days education came into my life! i wanna do well for my uni. ive high expectations for myself. i wanna achieve much more than what i din managed to do so back in poly. this is why ive changed for the good - study hard! things hav turn out good soo far. until recently whn am feeling soo lethargic and slow with my progress. there were moments where i jus dread going to sch. or get my ass nailed onto the chair for revision. after these 2 horrible papers. i realised that i couldnt take setbacks and once failure hits me, its jus sooo hard to pick myself up. 2 weeks is all i left! its either do it or screw it. realistically high distinctions are beyond my sight and all i push for now is to maintain my distinctions. its really tough for me for the past 1 year. i had to work doubly hard to understand each module as compared to the rest of my peers. am not academically-inclined. and i jus do not hav this 'good student' instill in me. i know its kinda annoying to see me keep whining about my school. i hate talking about school to anybody and this space of mine is probably the only place i could pour my sorrows. and i want to make it last as am sooo wanna graduate aft this semester. supposedly to start on the rest of my revision by heading to sch lib early today. here i am sleeps in till afternoon and lazying around causes the time to tick away quickly. argh. had a horrible march. and now, i hate april best on red-hot exam mode cheers.ciaoz Labels: best from me Posted by BEST at 3:34 PM
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